I believe in Jesus and His love for me and have done so all the way through, from my early childhood to adulthood; my sweetest moments are in tender companionship with Jesus. This book is a true story of my memories of living in a cult in Mississippi and Ware, Massachusetts. A group of Christians almost destroyed my faith and made me question my beliefs. Some evil people disguised themselves as children of God and called themselves prophets. The highest minister of all, Brother Sam Fife and his ministry, the Fivefold Ministry, called on all God's children to sell what they had and follow him into the wilderness. According to his doctrine, the wilderness way of life would see them through to the end of the earth and its people. The objective was to sustain life by living off the land completely without relying upon the world's resources. According to Sam Fife, we were the chosen few; everyone beyond our circle in the world was essentially hopeless. If I were to give my readers a word of advice, it would be this: be careful how you live your Christian life and tread lightly before committing to a Church affiliation. Because of what I went through, my love for Jesus and my faith is now vital. I want to expose those who did something wrong – very wrong. There are former cult members like me in the world who are fearful to disclose their stories and instead suffer alone. I want to open the windows of their souls and tell them they did nothing that could cause them shame. Thank you for reading my book and following my journey.

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I want my readers to know that religion has a dark side and nearly cost me my faith in God. The church leaders did something wrong, very wrong. I detail the four years of my life when I was detained against my will. From the spankings to the cold-water baths with ice cubes in the tub to casting out of demons and much more. I want to let former/present cult survivors know you are not alone and you have done nothing wrong. I want to lift the darkness in their lives after surviving horrendous abuse and tell them they are no longer victims.